Wednesday, January 21, 2009

What I Need

My apologies to those of you who only stop by to see pictures of the baby. But I have felt like talking lately and during the day- this is my outlet. Maybe I will hide some pictures of the baby inside the post- you will just have to read and see. (No Fair just scrolling down looking for pictures, but if you need a baby fix that badly, I guess I won’t hold it against you.)

So here goes.

I have a little problem. I sing, Loudly, At the most inappropriate moments. I think it might be because I spend so much of my time around a person who doesn’t talk. Well that is a lie, I have done this my whole life- I remember being in the 1st or 2nd grade and walking around school singing to myself. In the 5th grade I was accused of having a radio in my desk- I guess I sounded pretty good if they thought I had a radio. The most recent incident was at the Draper Temple Open House. I spent 75% of the time singing (as quietly as I could, after all it was the temple). What was I singing? It was a song from “The Forgotten Carols”.

I don’t know if I am singing the correct words to the song, but I do know that- for me- they are the right words. This is what I sing to myself-

“All I ever wanted, All I ever dreamed of, Everything I am and all I ever hoped for, Couldn’t hold a candle to what I’ve been given. I’ve been given what I need.

Even when I didn’t understand, when I thought you had no heart. (La la laa la la la la la laaaa), Always giving me the better part.

All I ever wanted…………” and it just goes on and on, those same two lines over and over again, it wasn’t until I started typing it out that I realized I don’t even know the words to one part, I just la la la through it every time. HA.
So anyway, that is how I feel lately. I look back over my Adult Life, and I haven’t been given what I asked for, I have been given what I need. To tell you the truth, thinking about it now, I am pretty sure I would be currently miserable if I had been given everything that I asked for. Looking back, I can truly say that what I have been given is so much better than what I ever thought I wanted or needed.

So thank you Mr. Michael McLean! Thank you for your songs.

(And Thank you Mr. Baby for your willingness to be dressed up oddly and placed on tables so we can take pictures of you dressed up oddly.)

Now on to the real reason I have been telling you about my problem. It is because my problem has led to another problem. Since Christmas, (when we watched the DVD of the Forgotten Carols that got the song stuck in my head to begin with) I have been thinking about branching out, trying something I haven’t done in a long time. Performing…. in the Forgotten Carols. I know, I am odd, but I really have been thinking about writing to Michael McLean and asking how one goes about getting into one of his shows.

I figure that maybe, just maybe, he might remember a girl who fell off her riser (me and my chair) during the final dress rehearsal of the show in Logan in December of 1995. And even if he didn’t, maybe I will get a response saying, “Yes we are always willing to audition spectacularly funny and talented people, especially people with amazingly cute hair, such as yours”. You just never know unless you try, right? I would love to be the Nurse in the show, and be able to sing the song that has so recently touched my heart.

So what do you say? Should I try?


Jodi said...

Go for it! It will hurt more knowing you didn't try than being rejected (like that could happen).

Christy said...

Of course you should try!!!!! I tried out for a musical last summer...something I had never done before, and it was so much fun. It gave me an experience that I'll never forget. You'd be great!!!!

The Shumways said...

Yes, yes, yes!!! You HAVE to try out! I'm not a huge Michael McLean fan (knew his son, Jeff, in college; he was REALLY stuck on himself and kind of a jerk, so it turned me off to Micheal), but it would be so AWESOME for you to be in The Forgotten Carols. You have such an amazing voice and great stage presence. Take it from an x-drama teacher. Like Jodi said, you'll regret not trying out if you don't.

Hiccup MeL said...

Of course you should try! What can you lose? I mean, you already fell off a riser, it can't get much worse.

One of my new year's resolutions is to audition for a musical. I'm totally nervous since I haven't done one since high school, but I'm going to do it. Perhaps you could audition for one with me?

angee said...

Go for it, although I'm not sure if the auditions are open to the public or not. The same people have played the characters for years, but it's worth a shot, in my opinion. The worst he can tell you is NO, and then you'll have no regrets for trying. Let us know what you decide.

Angie said...

I love your voice Kate, you should definitely do it! We will be cheering for you here in the desert!

Rachel said...

You MUST!! You have the most beautiful voice, it would be a shame not to go for it.

Kristen said...

Singing is good for you - the more you do it the better! I'd love to be tempted to do that. I'd be a disgrace. But good luck to you. Follow your dreams!

Abby said...

My Kate.
There are reasons for everything in our hearts. You will find the reason for this. Here is his website.
Here is his email address.

This is what I think. If you are able to sing for him, you will find a place. Aren't there a few choral numbers? You don't start as the nurse, you find your way slowly in a group. Maybe you volunteer to work backstage, and you sing along and around and everywhere until someone says "Why isn't this girl in the show?"
Someone needs to hear you singing, angel girl.
That is what I think.

mj4toty said...

Dream big! And shoot for those dreams! BTW-your family is absolutely adorable!

mj4toty said...

Dream big! And shoot for those dreams! BTW-your family is absolutely adorable!